My biggest fear is the reality that my daughters are getting older. I worry tomorrow I’m going to wake-up and they will be heading off to college. I really want to slow this process down. I’ve been so preoccupied with launching HELP that I feel like my quality time with my kids has narrowed.
I don’t want ministry to control my life. I don’t want to be addicted to success or driven to the edge of insanity in the name of mission. Now, I want to be driven and I hope God will bring forth fruit. But I want healthy rhythms. I want to spend deep time with my wife and kids, I want to enjoy life, spend time with friends, drink great wine, read amazing books, travel the world, etc.
I’ve been so exhausted the past few weeks and I’m recognizing I need to make some key changes. I need to create more margins and activity that will replenish my soul. It takes discipline and focus to achieve this. I have to say no to many good things so I can say yes to the best things, which will create more room to relax and breath and slow down.